So I on the phones new years and I couldn't escape the constant stream of angry, drunk, or generally lunatic madness that comes from that most exceptional of nights. We were answering hundreds of calls but with the tiny number of team members couldn't cope with them all.
And then the night got real. Midnight came upon us and everything went mad. I can hardly remember the next 4 hours due to the volume of calls and it was only the breaths in between scripts that were able to measured.
I found that there was a smile on my face that just wouldn't stop growing and couldn't be repressed in my voice.
Have you ever been in a situation where the task was so monumental, so utterly without hope of success that you cannot but laugh or cry. I often have it but new years was one of the first since falling in the grampians and nearly dying that truly forced me to be overwhellmed, exhausted and joyful all in the same breath.
And then at 4 my shift ended, but it was still going on for so many of my companions. My smile faded, but the joy didn't. I knew anger, and pain during the night. I had kept on thinking that the voices in my head were often idiots, but the fact was although I had felt absolute anger welling in me, resentment that was utterly human, I could not but remain joyful.
So there you are, the more real it got, the more pain I felt, the more the anger, resentment and impatient I am the more the joy, the love and the greatness of humanity came to my fore. I wonder how others react to the tempering fires?
Have a great new year everyone. Find your bliss.
And then the night got real. Midnight came upon us and everything went mad. I can hardly remember the next 4 hours due to the volume of calls and it was only the breaths in between scripts that were able to measured.
I found that there was a smile on my face that just wouldn't stop growing and couldn't be repressed in my voice.
Have you ever been in a situation where the task was so monumental, so utterly without hope of success that you cannot but laugh or cry. I often have it but new years was one of the first since falling in the grampians and nearly dying that truly forced me to be overwhellmed, exhausted and joyful all in the same breath.
And then at 4 my shift ended, but it was still going on for so many of my companions. My smile faded, but the joy didn't. I knew anger, and pain during the night. I had kept on thinking that the voices in my head were often idiots, but the fact was although I had felt absolute anger welling in me, resentment that was utterly human, I could not but remain joyful.
So there you are, the more real it got, the more pain I felt, the more the anger, resentment and impatient I am the more the joy, the love and the greatness of humanity came to my fore. I wonder how others react to the tempering fires?
Have a great new year everyone. Find your bliss.
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