Hi its been awhile. Hard to know really why I have been avoiding the blogosphere but time has been against us for a while.
None the less its a good day to return with fresh eyes and a voice anew. I have returned to unemployment after a good 2 year run. I can't say I am sorry to leave the position I was in. The night shift, the hours, the incredible boredom these I will not miss. The people and the security however these I am going to miss a lot.
The lack of safety is not as bad as I thought It would be. I have hated this job with a passion for at least as long as I have not posted and It is not until now that I really got why I didn't want to post. The wonder at the little things that this blog is for had been subsumed by the passion of hate and injustice.
The place I used to work for has had a bad run. It allowed inappropriate actions to be undertaken by staff, had management that failed in its duty of care and allowed both underpayment and safety issues to occur, worse it lost money in a business that just should not lose money. I even became a union member and in the end staff rep' just to see if I could get a few of the issues looked into. That worked out terribly with the people i tried to help just becoming the punching bags of management strategies and the workplace just going further down the tubes.
This latent hate, these broken understandings lent me to failing to write or produce the stories I so desparately want to build in my life. Its hard to write positive hope about shattered dreams, failed expectations and promises.
However the job and the hatred taught me so much. How to compartmentalise my home and life from my work; how to deal with people on the phone briskly and effectively; how to pitch my voice and invoke calm in even the most agatated member of the public. It was this invoking of made up emotions instead of my natural empathic ability that most drained me however and has just increased the releaf of not working there.
But the real question now is what to do next. I can't accept not having an income source and the instabiliy of not having a job, while the constant rejection of people regarding my abilities and honour will lead me inevitably down the same pathway that I have walked previously and destroy my finally reconstructed ego.
But if I learned nothing else I dont want to go back to a crap job. It is not worth it.
So where from here? don't know but at least its going to be interesting.
None the less its a good day to return with fresh eyes and a voice anew. I have returned to unemployment after a good 2 year run. I can't say I am sorry to leave the position I was in. The night shift, the hours, the incredible boredom these I will not miss. The people and the security however these I am going to miss a lot.
The lack of safety is not as bad as I thought It would be. I have hated this job with a passion for at least as long as I have not posted and It is not until now that I really got why I didn't want to post. The wonder at the little things that this blog is for had been subsumed by the passion of hate and injustice.
The place I used to work for has had a bad run. It allowed inappropriate actions to be undertaken by staff, had management that failed in its duty of care and allowed both underpayment and safety issues to occur, worse it lost money in a business that just should not lose money. I even became a union member and in the end staff rep' just to see if I could get a few of the issues looked into. That worked out terribly with the people i tried to help just becoming the punching bags of management strategies and the workplace just going further down the tubes.
This latent hate, these broken understandings lent me to failing to write or produce the stories I so desparately want to build in my life. Its hard to write positive hope about shattered dreams, failed expectations and promises.
However the job and the hatred taught me so much. How to compartmentalise my home and life from my work; how to deal with people on the phone briskly and effectively; how to pitch my voice and invoke calm in even the most agatated member of the public. It was this invoking of made up emotions instead of my natural empathic ability that most drained me however and has just increased the releaf of not working there.
But the real question now is what to do next. I can't accept not having an income source and the instabiliy of not having a job, while the constant rejection of people regarding my abilities and honour will lead me inevitably down the same pathway that I have walked previously and destroy my finally reconstructed ego.
But if I learned nothing else I dont want to go back to a crap job. It is not worth it.
So where from here? don't know but at least its going to be interesting.
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